Lots of work to do...

I went out for another walk / run jog today.  I managed to run for about 7 minutes (which felt like 20) before I felt I needed to walk again and then a further 3 minutes (but by then I reached an uphill bit in the road so had to walk from there).  Not brilliant, but I'm happy with it.  It is better than nothing. 

Apart from my impatience I realised I have to also work on my self-consciousness and shyness.  I can be extremely pushy when it comes to people and causes I believe in, but I am actually really shy and so each time I go out for my walk / run jog, I try and make sure it is at a time I am not likely to meet anybody who might recognise me.  And so each time it happens that I run jog past somebody I might know it really throws me.  So I have a bit of work to do!

It's been a little while...

since I updated this blog.  Last week I decided to just put the walking / running on hold.  The week before my knee still felt rather sore and whenever I went for a walk it would suddenly become really painful about halfway making it really uncomfortable walking back.  So I decided to just take a break.

This morning was really nice weather wise and my knee felt significantly better and so off I went - mostly walking with a bit of a jogging thrown in.  And it was okay.  Exhausting but not uncomfortable! 

I have to learn patience though.  I am typically a very impatient person wanting everything to happen right now and of course it is going to take a long time before I will be considered fit in any way.

Apart from an embarrassing moment, I feel pretty proud

Today I decided to go for my walk again.  My knee was feeling better so I thought I'd give it a go.  I walked earlier in the week and it was okay.  So Bianca and I set off for her friends' home a bit further up the street.  They invited her for a sleep over (second night in a row - isn't she lucky?).  And so Bianca set off on her scooter and scooted off a bit ahead of me while I was walking with her bag and listened to Basshunter on my ipod.  I like Basshunter because his music is a bit faster and so it encourages me to up my pace a little bit.  A bit ahead of me Bianca suddenly stopped and said "Mum, I can hear you!"  So embarrassed!!!!  Turned out I was singing along and let me tell you - my singing is best kept for the shower or if I'm on the way somewhere in the car.  By myself.  Where others don't have to hear me.  Or when the kids want me to sing the sleepy time song I made up for Bianca when she was about 4 weeks old (yes, after 8 years I'm still asked to sing it every night). 

But anyway, got there and I had a cup of tea and a chat with Bianca's friends' parents and finally I left and set off on my walk.  I decided I would try and jog just to see how it goes and I kept coping and kept feeling comfortable enough and wow!  I managed to jog quite a bit further than I ever thought would be possible.  But there I was.  Not feeling like I was about to die.  Sure my legs felt like jelly when I stopped and walked the rest of the way home, but I wasn't significantly out of breath and my legs coped okay.  Wow! I'm pretty impressed with myself.  I might actually be able to put a 5km run on my list.

So apart from embarrassing myself, I feel incredibly proud of what I achieved today.  I think there is hope for me yet!